Always lo(ve)ndon.
“Babe, do you realize that London is home to countless stunning landmarks, right?” When we were out on the London street, you said. But do you ever consider yourself the most stunning person in the world?
“But i find something beautiful more than what you say,” I said while my brain realized that one of my favourite things in the world is casual intimacy. A small hand on my back when we are in crowded streets. A gentle kick from where us sitting across the table. a head on the shoulder, a hand in my hand, a squeeze on the arm as we are walking past. And i think maybe love isn’t made up of grand gestures or explosive displays but that it’s made up of the little things. The little things that say i’m here and i care for you and that your life has intertwined so deeply into mine that there’s no need to think, because casual intimacy comes easy and also the love.
“Hey babe, you okay?” You snapped a finger in front of my face and made me wake up from my admiring daydream.
“Sometimes I wonder how someone like me can deserve someone like you. I wonder because I’m this mess of a human being, I’m a disaster and you’re this amazing person with this sweet smile and a million of unravel stories while I’m just this closed book you decided to open and discover. And it scares me, to how much I love you. It scares me because if one day you decide you didn’t want me anymore, I wouldn’t know what to do without you. I’m giving you the power to destroy me and that’s terrifying,”
Smiling, you put the bag next to the guardrails of beauty and walked closer to me. That smile — that smile that always made me feel that the world stopped for a moment and there was only peace, never let go. Your hands rubbing my shoulders like I’m fragile stuff you need to protect. And that gaze, the gaze that brought me to the ninth heaven and was full of love, a gaze with meaning as deep as the ocean.
“Come here, babe. Let me remind you why human contact is an absolute necessity. Let me grab those hips of yours, and bring you in close enough to show you that you will never lose me. I want to bite your lips and fill your mouth with reasons why you’ll never want to belong to anyone else. T’ll let you trail your fingernails down my back as a map of the places you’ve taken me. You’ll fill my ears with the noises you make and remind me that the only thing I want to get high off of is your laugh. And when I whisper that love you, it’ll never be out of secrecy, but rather out of the certainty that you literally leave me breathless. Sounds too much mature but use that as a claim that you always be mine, only mine.”
My body was pulled until it was touching yours, and the fingers straightened my waist. We kiss to declare our love for each other in the rain and beauty of London. There is nothing more beautiful than a sweet, soft kiss, London, or rain. For me, the greatest blessing is having you in my life.
I love you, Marklee.
